With this Leap,
I come out of agreement
with the lies holding
my past against me.
I come out of agreement
with the fear of fear,
of being too much,
of weakness, of vulnerability,
the fear of control
or lack thereof.
With this Leap,
I receive the fullness of Jesus.
He calls me
righteous, trustworthy,
whole, new,
crowned, victorious,
Beautifully Free &
Fiercely Beloved.
I can do this because
He Loves Me.
Not to be dramatic but jumping off of the Tallest Bungy Bridge in the World seemed like the best way to combat some lies that have been trying me all Race.
When I committed to my friends that I would be in the group that bungy jumped, I was instantly nauseous and would be for the next week.
There was no turning back.
The day of, I was prayed up, motivated up, and busy visualizing myself successfully leaping off the Tallest Bungy Bridge in the World.
Locking eyes with myself in the mirror right before heading out, reminded me of my volleyball days. I charged the nerves to energy.
I had to walk up to that bridge like I owned it. The freedom was already mine; I just had to agree with it.
We zipline to the middle of the bridge, and this is where I knew there is no going back.
The actual bungy structure looked very secure which was helpful. My friends surround me with support and fun which was also helpful.
The guides chose the order, and I ended up second to last.
I spent the morning watching my friends jump off a bridge nervous and come up pretty happy, so my confidence continued to build with the anticipation.
It was my turn now. The most afraid I have ever been, sitting as they secure all my harnesses. Our one guide is there hyping me up, “You’re not scared, you got this!”
He helps me up and now the other guide is with us. They lead me on both sides.
My friends are reminding me, “Don’t overthink, just do.”
I hesitate. The new guide says, “Hey, don’t do that. The longer you stay here, the harder it’s going to be. All you have to do is trust me.”
I responded, “Yeah, you’re right.” We continue.
Before we knew it, I’m flying down 216 meters.
Freer than I’ve ever been. There was a river at the bottom which helped me to know which way was down and which way was up.
It was the wildest thing I had ever done. As the guides brought me back up, I was not the same.
After doing the scariest thing I could think of, I couldn’t help but walk different. Yeah, flying around will do that, but even more, the Lord equipped me to conquer my fears.
Yes, a bit extreme, but the Race has shown me that I prefer to live my life at this full capacity.
There were the rocks in Wisconsin, the roof in Guatemala, Volcán Acetenango, ladders in Costa Rica, and the ropes course in Colombia.
These events served to make tangible my struggles with vulnerability, identity, and receiving Love. Fear entered here and distanced me from Truth.
Yeah, I can admit I have weaknesses. I will choose to boast about them and refuse to fear them because what a perfect place for God’s power to shine.
In my head, I thought the Lord was calling me to this leap alone for me to really take ownership and authority. However, the guides actually never left me just like He doesn’t.
Matthew 28 describes the morning that Jesus resurrected while addressing fear. The guards feared the angel approaching and became like dead men, but the women listened to the angel and departed with fear and joy. Then, they got to meet Jesus.
Fears arise, but we can choose to be crippled by them or carry joy right along with it.
The next time Jesus addressed His friends, He spoke of the fullness of His authority that we get to carry as we go into life with Him and reminds that He is always with us.
On that bridge, Truth made a new home in my life, and fear is no longer welcome to stay.
Let me know if you’re trying to get bungy baptized; I can sign you up. 😉
